Hey

Hey it's me again just like always
When the sun has shed his final rays
And I'm left with just myself
And all my doubts rise up without much stealth
I stare into the darkness
I ponder my new loneliness
But am I really alone
Or is this a clever illusion of home

Hey just wanted to tell you I'm still here
In spite of or maybe because of my fears

Dark like a rose in the night
Cold like the light from a street lamp
Where hope takes sudden flight
And the flood becomes only damp

Hey it's me again did you forget
Or am I just another one in debt
To the screen of anonymity
And you come to me through serendipity
So you wouldn't know why
Or you wouldn't even try
To make any sense of me
Or had the thought not even tried to be

Hey just wanted to tell you I'm still here
In spite of or maybe because of my fears

Dark like a rose in the night
Cold like the street lamp light
Rain falls like shards of glass
Every song just like the last

Hey I'm still here
Hey did you forget
Hey

Reflections on the street
I stop to stare back at myself at my feet
Breeze like a dagger cutting
Hear the gates of heaven shutting
Flicker there now slowly
Chase away my melancholy
Remind me that I am still
More than mist with a troubled will

[Untitled XVII]

Who defines here?
Or is it just a myth?
Or am I just another one
Who's lost inside the labyrinth
Of all that you could fear?
Am I just another catalyst
For all from which you run?
Do you really want to know?

Who defines there?
Or is it just a tale?
Or are you just another man
Whose love for me will pale?
It's nothing but a flare
Nothing but a laggin fail
But love me while you can
'Cause someday I'll be dead

I never meant for this to be
Like walking over broken glass
I've tried to patch me back together
But the sky just keeps on falling down
I'll try to be so you can see
Through the scars and pain at last
I know we're both birds of a feather
But I'm still afraid that someday you will frown

Shadow of Cold Rain

I have nothing left to give
Hollowness like a red abyss
I'll just die the way I live
In the shadow of a cold rain

The curtain of this stage
Is the rain falling like shards of glass
The script is written--just a blank page
I am lost inside this shadow's mass

I am cold

I've been down this road before
You're not the first to want this
Another of a few or more
Here in the shadow of a cold rain

The curtain of this stage
Is the rain falling like shards of glass
The script has been read--just a blank page
I am writhing in this shadow's mass

I am cold

But you can try, I guess
To clean up the mess
Everyone left inside of me
No one else has cared enough
But i wonder if you dare to be
The one to teach me love

The curtain of this stage
Has risen to a new dialogue
A song has filled this empty whit page
I am dancing now out of the fog

I am here

Introspection

So many people trapped in one body
So many faces singing and weeping
Like an awful schizophrenic parody
They're all saying my sanity's not worth keeping

Ten thousand people dancing
In a room too small for me
Ten thousand people laughing
They say this is all there is to be

No longer just me myself and I
Now there's ten thousand people inside of me
All they do is laugh at me
She's such a fool
And in my head without the rules they all run free

Ten thousand people dancing
In a room too small for me
Ten thousand people laughing
They say this is all there is to be
Ten thousand people's eyes
All watching what i do
Ten thousand people's voices
Which one gets through to you?

Is this everything there is?
Of course it is
Can there be any more?
Oh, no! Never!
Was there ever anything for me?
Oh, dear child, you know there never was
Does everyone always laugh at me?
Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha..............

Ten thousand people dancing
In a room too small for me
Ten thousand people laughing
They know this is all there is to be